When the shinyness wears off

Ever noticed sometimes in chronic medical conditions, the doctor will give one a pill that at first blush helps enormously, and then after a few weeks/months the affects and relief you had from it become less and less? I am finding this with these anti-spasmodic pills my doctor gave me. At first it was a huge blessing the difference was so remarkable, but my pain levels the last few weeks have reverted back to at times not being very much different to before I started them. I have a doc appt today, and so will talk to him about this, and also a few other matters. Sometimes, well in fact often, I have had to cancel doctors appts because I've been to ill to get there! (sheesh!) and my pain levels at the moment seem to say that all too loudly, yet the alternative of not going and this level of pain being allowed to continue, is a much worse evil than going whilst in this degree of pain. It kept me awake along with itching the majority of last nite.

Oh yes!! I've lost a £20 note!! Yikes! Stupid thing is of course, its in the home, and yet have no idea where I may look to find it. Its around $35 US dollars, and it may not be a huge amount, but it sure feels it! It will no doubt turn up, as I'm always losing things I have in my hand one moment and no idea where it is the next, but, tis quite annoying!

But since I have to be at the doctors in around two hours, guess I best stir myself and get coffee and get showered and make myself presentable to go. Some mornings, when pain levels seem way beyond manageable, the simplest tasks can seem arduous and hard, and its why with my dad's hospital appts I always insist on them being late afternoon, as I know that is the most likely time of day I will most usually be able to make it to go with him. And a large part of the reason I tell doctors, "I don't do mornings". Thankfully, most doctors will understand the morning syndrome with a physically disabled person, and try to accomodate one. But for now, coffee, is my greatest need. |