God's Idiot

Ever feel like "God's Idiot"? I seem to spend most of my waking moments feeling like it. But then, remember, that the world mocked Christ too. Only in my case, its often not only the world I feel despised, mocked and scorned by. But, yes, I seem to spend a life time feeling like God's very own idiot.

Talking of which I had no idea it was Saturday today. I mean not in the usual kind of "It doesn't feel like Saturday" kind of way. But no idea at all. Had no particular day in mind what it was, but certainly didn't think it was Saturday. Its the simple things like that, why sometimes I miss my dad being here in the home. As I would often ask him what day it was, feeling clueless like the above. Thank goodness for computers and the little calendar which sits in the taskbar with the current day highlighted!

Talking of Saturday, it's a Bank Holiday weekend here this weekend. Monday everyone is off work and the schools are shut etc. Its what used to be known as Labour Day I think, or May Day, which was one and the same thing. Normally folks, or families will go out and do things together, or just generally hang out and have fun. Ever feel life left you behind and the world left you behind? Again I do, quite often. Still, if the weather improves maybe I can sit in my garden again, which will suit me fine.

A Christian friend I have here, leaves this weekend, and is heading for Russia or somewhere on the Eastern block to teach English to them. I have very few what I consider good Christian friends here, and we didn't see each other very much, but we kept in touch reguarly either by phone or email, (or both). I am glad the opportunity has opened up for them, as they deserve a break and something good to happen, yet I seem forever destined to be more and more alone as far as Christians go. Two of my other friends, are leaving later in the year for China. And again I'm glad for them. But hate how I'm becoming more and more forced on the outside. That will leave me one Christian friend here.


Seems I've imagined Him all of my life
As the wisest of all of mankind
But if God's Holy wisdom is foolish to men
He must have seemed out of His mind

For even His family said He was mad
And the priest say a demon's to blame
But God in the form of this angry young man
Could not have seemed perfectly sane

Chorus
We in our foolishness thought we were wise
He played the fool and He opened our eyes
And we in our weakness believed we were strong
He became helpless to show we were wrong
And so we follow God's own fool
For only the foolish can tell
Believe the unbelievable
Come be a fool as well

So come lose our life for a carpenter's son
For a man who had died for a dream
And you'll feel the faith His first followers had
And you'll feel the weight of the beam
So surrender the hunger to say you must know
Have the courage to say I believe
For the power of paradox opens your eyes
And blinds those who say they can see

Chorus

So we follow God's own Fool
For only the foolish can tell
Believe the unbelievable, come be a fool as well

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