Spaced Out!

All rocket scientists get like that some times!

But, have made my decision regarding an important matter. As the questions had been there for over a week. Well, more like almost two weeks. . But, in some ways, I'm sick of always flying solo in things. And it feels like almost the final nail has been put in to make that total.

Life ain't easy for anyone, its even harder when you walk the road alone in all the ways that matter.

So, in an effort to delay confronting this matter, and feeling in some kind of circle of normality, and because I feel ill, and talking on the phone can be a huge effort at times, one that wipes me out for the rest of the day, I shall go into avoidance over the weekend, and pray for courage to take it on next week. Job said, (DJ paraphrase, you come into this world with nothing, and you go out the same way) and that is true. But sometimes its the nothingness in between those two events, that seems hard. The Lord promised He would never leave or foresake, and I believe that, yet as your world gets torn apart bit by bit, whether its through physical extremeties or loss of things, people being there in a way most folks can take for granted, you sometimes wonder, if everything else is being stripped apart, in order to make Him alone enough. Sometimes, I think the emotional affects of this affliction and all that goes with it, will be the thing that drives me nuts, from grief and sorrow. But the show ain't over till the fat lady sings. And there's an ole puritan saying that, "When we are down, God is up to something." And from experience, that is true.


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