Suffering

My life may feel pretty meaningless to me alot of the time. But the day I know someone else, who maybe under severe affliction and I get so used to them being under it, that I no longer bother or care, they can tell me if its illness that's wrong with them long term, they are struggling worse right now, and I say nothing cos it completely passes me by as not noticable, or if someone is suffering in any other way and I harden to it in a simialr way, then, after knowing how it feels personally for that to become the case so often, that your suffering is normal to other people, and if you said you are iller or even on ones death bed, you don'tl think becuse its become so normal so usual for you, that it passes by without a word, or a blink of an eye, if I become hardened in that way, after knowng what it is to live like that, then I shall know I"ve wasted my time here completely.

Me not noticing another persons affliction because it is a permenant part of their life, doesn't make it easier fo them to bear. There suffering goes on even if I choose to ignore or not acknolwldge it in any way. And can only make them feel their suffering doesn't matter in the least, because its them, and not anyone else, and their life has probably never mattered a lot anyway, to anyone at all. So, why should now be any different? But, if it was someone else, anyone else, it would matter. It may not matter very much on the scale of things, I may only be at the bottom of the rung of mattering, but I still have to get through this, and worthless or not, its real, its hard, its lonely. So, others afflictions should never be common place or normal to us, cos they will never be common place or normal to them.
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