Sometimes..tis hard being..
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Genius has limitations; stupidity is boundless Anonymous |
A Genius. Even one with limited brain capacity! 
I am moving on, from here. A thing I swored I'd never do in my life time. But needs must and all that. And you try to do what's right for everyone, and yet to do so is a struggle, especially when with limited brain capacity you find others who leave everything to fall onto your lap as far as getting things going goes. And when you know you've made the God given decision about some things, you hear the voice of opposition from unbelieving friends, who you know and even as you hear you know they are right in their asessment, yet you can't do the wordly thing, as much as it seems rationale.
So, I shall move to supported housing, probably within the next six months. And I don't really have a say or a choice into which area of the town I move to owing to waiting lists. And cos I am using privately owned rather than local govt owned housing associations to fix me up, theoretcially I could move anywhere in the country. This is tempting in some respects. I mean folks have seen my globe-trotting (or lackof) expeditions on the map below. But I likely won't move out of Birmingham. But cos it could be the other side to where I am now, it could well be out of travelling distance if ever I was able to go out anywhere again, from my church. I don't drive, and so as a wheelchair user being easily reachable is a priority for attending. But its really beyond my control. And all I can do is pray for a smooth transition with as little stress as possible. As stress next to the sun, being one of the chief triggers for setting my condition into worsening.
I sometimes wish I had the brains to be a real brainiac genius.
But, I get there in the end, even if I have to bunny hop around the block to get to where other folks seem to get to straight away and in a quarter of the time. I dislike change in many ways, which is probably why this particular illness has been such a thorn in my side. As you can never tell practically from one hour to the next how things maybe.
And I finally get my genes inspected come Monday. So, that should after 6-8 weeks waiting for results of the gene tests, get me well on the way to seeing a specialist in this area. tho the success it is and can be treated with seems to be very variable, and the outlook not great. I've also wondered since my liver pain is so unrelenting last while, if I may have hepatitis, as how would I know? As this is a common complication and have heard of several folks with the condtion who did have it and were unaware. So, when everything hangs in the balance on so many ifs and ands, it makes me glad for a Good, Gracious, merciful, Holy, Righteous, Long-Suffering God. As it helps keep the stress down, to knwo that wherever the ball ends up in the end, the final decision is not mine, in as to how far it rolls and where it stops.
(blogger seems to be having problems, and that includes with recognizing audio files)
Mahatma Gandhi
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