A sobering thought

On a serious note as far as pictures of oneself go, I think sometimes we can come across something not recent and it can be sobering in many ways. I found a pic of ten years ago tonite, I thought it long lost, or thrown out and trashed for various reasons. And I don't recognize the person in the picture. And for me at least, its not vanity, you just realize how over a period of time, desease and illness has eaten away at your body, and changed you completely. You know, it was a decade ago. Which is a fairly long time, but not long enough to make that difference on the scale of things. It was sobering and kinda weird too. To look at a picture of yourself,. and feel its a stranger. I used to have a male friend, who always said I could never pass a mirror without looking in it, and he was just pulling my leg the way he always did, but it was also true. These days, a mirror is a stark reality, and reminder of how on any given day desease is eating away at me. It makes me rather grateful and rather humble, that outwardly I don't recognize myself from 10 years ago, and its quite shocking. And inwardly from ten years ago, I don't recognize myself either, and that is kinda reassuring, that God can build His people from the inside out, not from the outside in. But still kinda un-nerving in the realms of seeing a stranger in the pic who was me.
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