An incredible wit...or...
An Incredible Twit?
I've always felt one of the greatest gifts on this earth, is the gift of laughter. As long as I could make someone smile today, any day, then life had meaning. There's nothing quite like seeing someone downcast or blue, and you say something vaguely amusing to see there lips part and brow lift and there old worn face suddenly is alive again, if only for the moment.
I'm one of those people who alot of the time, can be one hundred per cent happy, but if not, are one hundred per cent unhappy, often with no middle way. And yet even when one hundred per cent unhappy my sense of humour always seems to be on automatic pilot ready to send a flash out, as its kind of inbuilt. And think this dark sense of humour is what sustained me through the years. And often in the past would go to any lengths to cause a ripple of laughter for somone. And over the years people have called me an incredible wit, and yet truth is, I'm more of an incredible twit.
When God first came onto my horizon in a meaningful way, I was sure He was going to be a spoil sport and stop all or any fun i wanted to have. Even the thought of having to answer to someone seemed an act of putting a dampener on life. And I remember thinking, sinning is going to be no fun any more. See? An incredible twit. And my lifes nowhere near sinless, its not even anywhere near as sinless as I would like it to be, and in many ways with constant affliction life could seem, dull, dreary, not worth having. And yet Job Said, "The Lord Gives, and The Lord takes away. Blessed is the name of the LORD." And its true. God does take away, and yet He more than gives in return. I have a hard job to reconcile the loss of my health sometimes, in the scale of things, especially when one sees almost in every place whether inside the church or outside, peoples lives going merrily on by comparison. But mostly, the fun in life has not ebbed away. And not been taken, and yes, I do still sometimes think I wish life was more fun, and yet the greatest gift of all, is God Himself. And if I can make someone smile today, even if its one of those days when feeling dead inside, this is often all the proof need, to know, that however desperate things feel, my life is still worth something.
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