When overwhelmed by the trials of life

When one is in such a dark, empty, tortured place, you think you must've died already and arrived at the wrong destination, when tortured both physically, mentally and feel abandoned by God, you feel nothing can ever make it right. And you feel yourself sinking under the weight of life, death, and ghosts of the past. and you feel God doesn't hear you, what can make that right?

There seems very little. you feel the dark elements are overpowering you, as you see the people from long ago, who made yoru life a living hell, in the same room as you. You hear them taunt you, and you want release. What can make that right?

Evidence of goodness. Amidst the wickedness of the world both past, present and future. You look out side, you see a flower growing, new life, You see on the TV a new born foal, happy as Larry, evidence of life, and theefore goodness, and evidence that the evil cannot win. As can the devil spawn new life? But the all powerful, ever loving God, or justice, mercy and kindness can. The Bible says faith is by things not seen. And that's true. But sometimes, when the darkness and shadows seem to overwhelm, and your body physically feels past endurance points for bearing any more, the evidence which is there, if we have eyes to see, is the thing that makes the darkness less powerful and less engulfing.

And it goes back to something I heard a friend of mine say once, and have repeated it to others too, one can't be suicidal and praising God at the same time.


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