Sinister Sin
Monday, April 12, 2004
I have actually felt remarkably well today. And praise the Lord it was a Sunday for such a blessing. The pain issues which are part of every day life, are constant, yet that alone is copeable and tho one cant' forget it, it doesn't blight the landscape on its own.
I was however made aware, of unresolved issues, which no doubt boil down to falling short on my part. Unforgivness is one. Sometimes feel the bottle God has for my tears Psalm 56:8 will not be big enough to hold them. And can't help but feeling in my fleshful nature that one should not forgive what seems the unforgivable to anyone. I can't reconcile this whole forgiveness thing, of living in this life, knowing what's gone before, knowing that God forgave me, you and anyone else who earnestly called on His name. Think about it then hit a brick wall. But, I'm seeking the Lord, and hoping He will empower me to do so. But how does one forgive half a natural life-time, when essentially, it was others sin which took it? Put that into the mix that any reasonable future may well be lost and have roots in the same cause, it seems impossible to me.
Pray for me. I'm stiff necked on this. And one step forward often results in two back.
